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(no subject) [Feb. 28th, 2008|02:49 pm]
single life is the only way...
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life [Jan. 24th, 2008|01:04 pm]
[Current Location |home]
[Current Mood |disappointeddisappointed]

day by day it seems as if im dieing faster than normal...

theres so much shit going on in this fast pace life i live...

so much loss to endure in the next few months i can feel it coming...

it saddens me to think of all the stuff ive been thew and the stuff im about to endure.

why again will i be fucked over?

sorry for the forgotten memories..you have not heard about..i miss you live journal and all my readers..for i am back..i have returned..to spill my heart and mind once more..
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(no subject) [Nov. 23rd, 2006|06:09 pm]
[Current Mood |sadsad]

Well first and formose happy thanksgiveing...

and God knows im thankful for a HELL of alot of stuff...

but i needed to spill alittle bit of my heart becuase i dont feel good inside...

well wrestling + any contact sports are over for me..for a long time... i messed up my neck and back and i still sit in pain that im not sopose to have.. my senior year gone.. its sopose to be the greatest year..but right now ive lost touch and i know it...i slaped my self and realized that im startin to slip away..and i need to focus on my life..and not fuck it up because theres still so much ahead of me.. well its been a week..and every day ive been messed up...and i didnt realize it till today...and it saddend me...im just thankful im still alive..though i havent given up on life fully yet...im takein a break..i think im gonna turn my phone off for the rest of the weekend..people know where i live..so meh...

well i got a job at red lobster..i have oreantation the 30th so back to workin i go..i enjoyed my break but i guess i cant be a bum for too long..i just hope i make decent money..

i feel as if ive stept in to the wrong crowd...well not the wrong crowd..but i guess im movein with them more than usual instead of movein my way..all ive been doin is smokein pot and popin xanx i guess thats why i dont remember much..but my has it been fun..but i have no money now..and i dont start workin for at leist a week...i guess that helpt me remember there is a life that needs to be lived..ive pushed this one person away and i feel so bad..she was like my right hand gurl..and i miss her being there..

i dont know who i am...but i know who i want to be...and what i am now is truly the wrong direction..

so will you forgive me?
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(no subject) [Sep. 3rd, 2006|10:11 am]
"A man's error's are his portals of discovery"
-James Joyce
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(no subject) [Aug. 30th, 2006|01:35 pm]
[Current Mood |disappointeddisappointed]

Crazier Things have happened...

I finally realized alot..

i smoked so much lastnight that i actually noticed what was happening. and it made me speechless...i didnt realized how people really where...

i cant belive ive been blind to this for so long..
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(no subject) [Aug. 30th, 2006|03:56 am]
[Current Mood |blahblah]

Ive Been Blinded all along....

"I Fear Rejection Over Failure"
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(no subject) [Aug. 28th, 2006|10:46 pm]
[Current Mood |contemplativecontemplative]

Why do i get bored with things...even people so often?
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(no subject) [Aug. 21st, 2006|11:19 pm]
i look the way i look and i dress the way i dress cuz i just dont give a shit i have no one to impress but MYSELF so take me for who i am or leave me alone..

"If You have to ask how much it is...you shouldnt be buying it.."
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Life Update... [Aug. 12th, 2006|12:02 am]
[Current Mood |blahblah]

Things have been rough this past week...i mean damn..i almost had an emotional break down at work 2day but i just sat in the walk in and thought about a few things and pulled my self togeather...i thought about a few things..and i realized..wow..im kinda a boreing person..and really FUCKIN busy as well...monday thursday and today consisted of wakein up for skool...than goin to practice than proceedin to work leavein work about 11 commin home showerin and sleepin...goin threw my SR year..im hopein i make new friends..i walk class to class and i dont talk to anyone..i really dont have any "friends" in any of my classes..i mean just people that ive talked to a few times over the years and kinda knew...but i cant really say that i have friends to hang out with like i did at lunch last year or like between classes or anything like i have in prevous years..its kinda sad.. i kinda hang out with nick and connor..but..meh...i feel as if im blown off and not wanted so i limit my appearnce...i guess im just feelin a bit down lately...

everyone i surrounded my self with just seems to be sliping away...

whatever...im done...talk to you guys when ever...everyone thats goin to college..say bye before you leave...
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Quick update [Aug. 4th, 2006|02:12 am]
[Current Mood |blankblank]

not much to say,
life just seems to be fadeing away,
i seem to be doing the same shit but on different days,
School starts monday.
-My Sr. year.
Swim Practice
-im still slow.
Work alot
-its kick ass
i feel so lazy dont feel like doing anything.
-except workin and Tokein
Save Me From This World That Just Can't Be..Everytihng seems To Be sliping away from me....

Someone saw you..you lied to me..and everyone around me..

Peace and Love,
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1st day of work [Jul. 31st, 2006|10:05 am]
[Current Mood |bouncybouncy]

my first day at my new job was so bad ass...its so easy and layed back..so kick ass all i really do is make pizza but im learnin everything else..im alot faster than the rest of the guys too but last nite was payday and the guy payed me for being there..it was pretty kick ass im gonna be there all day today..

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FUCK FAMILY! [Jul. 26th, 2006|11:46 pm]
[Current Mood |contemplativecontemplative]

..Well I just disowned my sister and she took it better than expected.

so all I can say is "FUCK YOU" and "GOOD BYE"

I thought maybe things change with people as they get older..but I guess not my sister is still the same i guess..sometimes I feel like my family is just standing on edge to stab me in the back..my sisters reply was

"well don't expect me at your graduation or anything and just loose my number than since im not your sister bye!"

it may seem cold hearted...but I think my life is still going on...as far as my graduation goes...ive all ready excepted the fact that my Mother nor Father will be there for it..and I can deal with that and if the 2 people that where in my life that made me cant make it and i'm "ok" with it...I really dont feel any other pain in the fact someone else wont be there...

Alot of my friends goin to college soon..makes me sit back and think of the perks...its actually a get away..people say you cant run from the past..but if you think of it. goin to college is a fresh start and you actually get away from the past..and you get to choose who you want to stay in touch with. must be great....SR year here I come.

~Jorge Webb...

"Lifes Full Of Dissapointments, I'm Ready For Them, Are You?"
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(no subject) [Jul. 26th, 2006|03:02 pm]
Would you be offended if I just left and said "FUCK YOU"?
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(no subject) [Jul. 25th, 2006|02:36 am]
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]

New Job=Bad ass I start when I feel so compelled to do so.
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(no subject) [Jul. 24th, 2006|01:10 am]
I Miss Her.

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Im Tired.... [Jul. 23rd, 2006|04:10 am]
well im going on the 3rd night in a row with the thoughts of very little sleep..the past 2nights have been spent drinking..well tonight im drinking alone..washing away my depression...but it seems to me as i sober up it comes crawling back..

i went out to the races tonight..and i realized the CRAZYEST thing..and im still in shock/thought about it..i dont want to admit this scary thought becuase it will just break my heart even more..

anyways went out to the races some crazy shit happened..the guy got a knife pulled on him and he almost got stabed..but he took of running..so i bounceed outta that shit..rolled around..went to hit up presedents but it was hot out there so i just procceded to meet up with everyone else..on the way to the corse i rolled on a mustang and beat it! my car is the shit on rolls..never lost a roll..so that was my 2nd victory on a mustang made me happy..

im just kinda sad im at my house at 4am drinking alone in my room listening to crunk music..and this CRAZY fuckin idea in my head about this sictuation but WTF...i dont understand how it can be....as much as ive been hurt thus far and than thease thoughts..no..no no...cant be..maybe ill just have another drink and make it away safe from this shitty idea in my head...

GOOD NIGHT neverland!
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(no subject) [Jul. 22nd, 2006|11:04 pm]
A Drunkin Emotional Talk In A Bathroom Opened Up My Eyes To Alot..
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(no subject) [Jul. 19th, 2006|03:48 pm]
[Current Mood |boredbored]

You Are a Kinetic Learner

You learn best by doing, and you have a talent for complicated, physical tasks.
You excel at athletics, drama, and fixing things.
You would be an excellent Olympic athlete - or a Broadway star!

You May Be a Bit Antisocial...

Antisocial? That may be a bit of an understatement.
You think rules are meant to be broken - and with gusto!
Having no fear, you don't even think about consequences.
But people love you anyway... you've got a boatload of charm.
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MY SR YR! [Jul. 17th, 2006|02:33 pm]
[Current Mood |giddygiddy]

1st Amer Govt Vachon, Dawn
2nd English 4 Lehane, Christian
3rd Drafting Tech1 Mansier, Aurelien
4th Weights 2 Johnson, Andrew
5th Ind/Dual Sports1 hutchinson, Albert
6th StageCraft 3 Cook, Jeffery


C/O '07
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My Trip... [Jul. 16th, 2006|04:32 pm]
[Current Mood |blankblank]

Well i returned from my weekend get away to tallhassee to visit my sister for her birthday i left friday afternoon for tallhassee nice ride kinda boreing alone the whole trip but meh i made it threw it i arived there met my sister at walmart really the only place i knew how to get to i met a few of her friends and than we had dinner and we went back to her appt. (not excatly the best of places but its something she can afford) watched a movie and slept..than saturday came on for her b-day we went over to my aunt and uncels house to visit them i gave my uncle the 2things i got for him when i went to europe he really liked em :-) got a call from my lil brohters dad we went to walmart again to meet them and we got nice brother sister photos done at walmart complaments of yours truely.. i wanted to get em done and it happend OMG how my lil brother has gotten FAT! hes like as tall as my sister and weighs about as much as i do...hes only 9 at that! but anyways he and his dad left after we where done with the pictures which i kinda wondered about they drove 3hours to come see us for maybe an hour if that..well my sister and i went back to her place and i took a much needed nap after we went to dinner..i felt really uncomphy cuz i didnt know anyone and i dont like eatin around ppl i dotn know really i bought our meals and we went to one of her friends house and they drank i didnt go Me! than they where talkin about goin to a club..i was like ehh..im only 17 i cant go..but they went anyways so i went back to my sisters place got my stuff and went to my aunt and uncles house i was supprised i didnt get lost on my way there..it wasnt excatly a short trip..i slept at my aunt and uncles and got on the road to head home about 9am i said bye to ym aunt my sister didnt show though suprise suprise and my uncle was still in the hospital..but my trip home was alot of fun by my self..i stoped by my moms grave and visited with her for a while than i procceded home doin 100 down I-75 was fun Rockin out to System of a Down it was pretty bad ass anyways i got home and had lunch with my family..joe had left for europe today before i got home so it was just my aunt, uncle and I..than to make my whole trip worse...on top of...

-my uncle being in the hospital the whole time i was there
-my lil brothers dad "dieing" and watning to talk about what to do with my lil brother
-and my sister treatin me like shit..

i get a call from my sister tellin me that my aunt and uncle and cusin are mad at me because $50 came up missing from my lil cusins money stash and i was being blamed for it...so i called my aunt and talked to her and told her that i wasnt happy about being accused of takeing the money and i have no need for takeing the money and if i was in the need the last person i would take it from would be my family even wose my lil cusin...and she had told me that they didnt accuse me they didnt even think it was me to begin with they knew/thought it was my sister that took it because she has a "record" for stealing money from my family..which i knew and is one of the reasons that i didnt cary any cash on my on this trip i used my card for the whole trip..but anyways i was so upset about this i couldnt finish my lunch/dinner and after i got home i got a call from my cusin danny and he talked to me a bit aobut this whole sistuation and he appoligized for my sister and all and said that they knew it wasnt me who took the money that they knew it was her they where just tryin to get her to confess to it...and it really bothers the shit outta me that MY OWN SISTER FLESH AND BLOOD would even ACCUSE me of stealing it After EVERYTHING we have been threw as a family and EVERYTHING ive done for her as a sibling she STABED ME in the fucking back...i was so pissed off about this..and i still am kinda upset about it...how fucked up is that to blame something on a sibling like that..BASDKHGA

anyways it made me feel good to know that my family trust me and knew that i wouldnt steal mony from them and the belive that it wasnt me..i mean they heard the dissapointment in my voice as i talked to em to..but anyways...my trip this weekend could have been alot better...it wasnt the best of trips i could have possiblie taken...

anyways im free tonight HOLLA AT CHEA BOI!

Peace And Love..
~Jorge Carmelo Webb.

"What wisdom can you find that is greater than kindness"
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